From My Journal

Jeremiah 17:7
“Blessed [with spiritual security] is the man who believes in, trusts in, and relies on the LORD, and whose hope and confident expectation is the LORD.”

Trust [truhst] n.
Reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, or surety of a person or thing; confidence. Confident expectation of something; hope. A person or thing on which one relies.

• Confidence
• Expectation
• Faith
• Hope

April 29th, 2025
Ten days before my family’s fatal auto accident on May 10th, 2025, I wrote in my journal:

Lately, all that’s been in my spirit is TRUST GOD. I could hear the words “TRUST ME” whispering in the ears of my mind—God whispering it in the depths of my soul to trust Him. And I couldn’t shake it off or let it go. It felt like a cloak God had placed over me, urging me to simply trust Him. His faithfulness was all I was holding on to. He was enough. And faithful is exactly who He is to me. I didn’t have all the answers. I didn’t know all that He was doing, but I heard Him clearly saying, “TRUST ME!”

I was in tears over my lack of faithfulness in response to His constant, consistent faithfulness. I said to myself, Whatever it is, Tara—TRUST HIM. No matter what, don’t take your eyes off Him.

Life can be incredibly hard and full of uncertainties, but our God is all-knowing. Trust Him—even if you’re crying through it. Refuse to focus on the pain, the anxieties, and the fears. He truly is able. His Word is truth—not our circumstances.

God, in all His faithfulness, had prepared my heart and mind for about a month for what only He knew was going to take place. He knew we had to go through it, and that the pain would be so deep He had to prepare my mind beforehand. In the midst of it all, I look back and stand amazed. He always knew. It wasn’t for me to know what was coming, but He prepared me. I didn’t need to know He was preparing me—I just needed to be prepared. He has been carrying me. He only needed me to trust Him.

May 21st, 2025
Eleven days after our fatal car accident, I received a Facebook message from Kimone:

“He’s that small, still voice in the midst of the pain whispering, ‘Trust Me.”

I simply replied, Amen. But I took a screenshot of her message for later, because I knew instantly that it was God speaking through her—confirming what He had already spoken to me privately.

I had never shared that journal entry publicly with anyone. I encouraged those within my close circle to trust God no matter what, but even with them, I never went into full, in-depth detail about how God was dealing with my mind. Kimone’s message that day led me back to what I wrote in my journal on April 29th.

TRUST GOD

His name is Jesus. My trust in Him—His faithfulness—is what’s keeping me. I believe in Him. I trust Him. I rely on Him. My security is in Him. He is my hope. He is my confidence. He is my expectation.

I feel what Psalm 91:2 says:
“I will say of the LORD, ‘He is my refuge and my fortress; My God, in Him I will trust.”

If you’re walking through uncertainty, pain, or waiting on God’s promises—pause and breathe. Let trust rise again in your spirit. God is still faithful. He has not forgotten you.

Take a moment today to:

• Pray: Invite God into your space and listen for that still small voice.
• Reflect: Write down one way He has been faithful to you before.
• Declare: Say out loud, “God, I trust You—no matter what.”

Then share your story. Your testimony might be the whisper someone else needs to hear: “Trust Me.”

I stand today on this truth:

“O Lord, You alone are my hope. I’ve trusted You, O Lord, from childhood.”
— Psalm 71:5

This is more than a verse—it’s my declaration. My life testifies: He is my hope, and I will trust Him still.

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